1.20.2005

AW, NOT AGAIN

dear friends of mine, you've seen me do this before... why, oh why, do i expect such great things from people, but get so little in return? why do i believe that everyone has some fundamental good that trumps all selfish attitudes? why do i constantly believe in people when they turn around and prove me wrong? ugh. i've had enough. it sounds almost like i've given up on you... shall i just assume that everyone is selfish and live with that?

i'm serious- i'm really fucking serious... don't you people think you should treat others as you would have them treat you? we're all goddamn human beings with goddamn emotions, and for christsake let's all take a second to savor the gravity of that statement...

for fuck sake, we're not fucking children- someone, oh god help me, someone just take the time to reach out and understand someone in his/her life; someone take the time to consider- just for one goddamn second- how your behavior affects someone else...

i'm so frustrated right now i feel like i should just pack it all up and move the fuck out to the desert with the fucking lizards and fucking scorpions- you fucking east coast fucking people are really starting to turn me into someone i'm not. to quote a truly compassionate person, "STOP BEING SO FUCKING LAME!" i've done my part, now fucking sack up and do yours. jesus fucking christ, people. goddamnit. just god motherfucking damnit.....

1 comment:

Paul said...

ryan, I...I don't know how to say this....but...I love you, man.

P.S. Do you ever have that dream where you're standing on a pyramid, in sun god robes, surrounded by thousands of naked, screaming women, throwing little pickles at you?